![]() Even writing for this blog sometimes feels trivial and pointless. Sending out texts asking how their day is going? Pointless. ![]() Hopping on a Zoom call with my friends sometimes feels pointless. For me, job searching during a pandemic feels pointless. Just like the quote at the top of this post says, right now we’re in a time where a lot of things feel pointless. I hadn’t seen either of them since the shutdown, and it was SO nice to see friends in real life! Feeling energized while spending time with my mom, eating zesty and sweet cherries, seeing my sweet friend’s grateful tears, and talking to friends in person for the first time in weeks: these are all the sweet fruits that came from showing up. Plus, another sweet bonus that came with showing up to the parade was seeing two of my closest friends at the park afterwards (we didn’t touch or stand close together). And I’m so glad we showed up.ĭriving by her house and seeing her cry and smile in surprise and joy was so worth it. I wanted to be there for my friend because she graduated from college, and celebrating her trumps feeling tired any day. After 5 minutes of debating, I told Max that we had to leave our place by 12:30 p.m. Again I found myself playing the “should I cancel or not” game. The idea of showering, applying makeup, hopping in the car, and gathering with a group of people to drive by my friend’s home felt really overwhelming. ![]() All of a sudden the heavy and sluggish feeling I had earlier that morning rushed back. It was 11 a.m., and I had a graduation car drive by parade at 1 p.m. Showing up to cherry picking was so worth it.Īn hour after my mom dropped me off, I looked at the clock. Being outside, picking bright red, orange, and yellow cherries from the trees reminded me that even in a sick world, organisms are still growing and flourishing. Chatting with her and making dumb but funny jokes immediately lifted my spirits. So I told her that I’d get the coffee brewing and to head on over.Ībout 5 seconds of just being in my mom’s presence, I knew I made the right decision. But then the thought of flaking on my mom sounded worse. The thought of peeling myself away from my bed and being outside around other people sounded way too exhausting. Before texting her back, I spent a solid minute debating whether or not I should cancel our fruit themed outing. which meant I had about 30 minutes to get ready. The text was from my mom, and it read, “Did you already have coffee”.Īfter about 1 minute of staring at my mother’s text, I realized that I had asked her to go cherry picking with me that morning at 9 a.m. There, across my screen was a text that for a second left me puzzled. But then I rolled over and grabbed my phone. My entire body felt like dead weight, and I could not get up for the life of me. This past Saturday morning, I woke up feeling more fatigued than usual. Saturday was a really great day, and here’s why. This has the effect of making everything feel mildly pointless.” – Haley Nahman, Maybe Baby That it will test our ability to navigate discomfort without our typical roadmap or any clear destination in mind. “I think most of us understand, on a cellular level, that this time is and will continue to be one of endurance. So I got an early start to the day which means I’ll actually be posting a Monday Merries before 5 p.m.! It’s a Monday miracle! Word of the Week The rain was so loud, it woke both Max and I up. It sounded like there was a bajillion hyper-powered water guns shooting our roof. The rain started falling down super hard around 3 a.m. Happy Monday my lovelies! Did it rain in your part of town? It poured over here in Morgan Hill last night.
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